“WHO AM I”
(Personal Reflections)
Life is full of choices and each one
of us has ROLES to play. We tend to believe that what we are now are really we
are, but all we showed are for the expectations of other people, pretending to
be good, tough, kind etc., but in reality we are not. As I go along with my
reflections and tried to go deeper with the question WHO AM I, I found out that
I played so many ROLES. Do I really know
myself? Am I really this kind of person? What kind of MASK am I wearing? Because
of these questions, I was able to know more about myself. This has been the
answers:
I am kind, a
bit emotional, sensitive, hardworking, honest, friendly and most of all
God-fearing but hot tempered, stubborn and full of resentment. A product of a
broken family, my parents separated when I was eleven years old and was able to
finish my studies at my own expense from high school to college. Right after
college I got married at my own expense and blessed with four children.
Currently, I’ve got two full-time jobs, as a Venue Manager from Club Ultima
Phils., and College Faculty from University of Cebu- LM. Having two jobs in a
different environment made me feel extra ordinary. I used to have double job
way back in my college , working as an
Accounting Staff in the morning and as a Service Crew in KFC from 5:00 o’clock
in the afternoon to close. Despite my hectic schedule I see to it that I can
attend and participate MASS everyday and that’s already part of my routine.
Being successful for me is a choice not by luck. I have lots of resentment to
my father and I thought I already overcome it because of my relationship to my
God but I realized that it was not fully given up. I don’t believe in excuses, it’s a matter of
time management and prioritizing things. People were looking at me as a tough
man, but I’m not, that’s exactly opposite of me, very sensitive and emotional
person. But then again, I was portraying such kind of role which really
required in the kind of job that I have . I want everything to be in-placed and
organized, that poverty is not a hindrance to be successful. Life is not a bed
of roses such that everyone should strive hard in order to survive. Life is too
short, every day we lived we should live it to the fullest and of course with
the consideration of people that surrounds
us.
I also
realized that more than anyone else, I should be true to myself that one day I
will be facing to my God and will be responsible to all my doings. I know and I do believed that every human
should be treated equal no matter what status in life, since God treated us
equally, that there is no poor or rich, everyone is fair. Trials, difficulties
and problems are God’s way of testing our faith and testing our strength.
